3:04 AM, Monday, December 7, 2009
the best shot of us .
i'm going to do something that i never did in my blog before .
thats i'm going to tell how it goes with my relationship .
in my blog , i'll never talk more about my relationship .
i just don't like to , idk why .
but now , today will the first time and also the last time .
we've officially break up .
he requested to , and i've nothing to do other than accept .
i'm not willing .
cried for the whole night and slept for only 2 hours before exam .
it was expected if i failed my economics .
i didn't really go through all those question , my mind is totally blank .
nothing else , just kept rewinding about yesterday's night incident .
i'm really tired and my eyes looked smaller than usual .
after home i thot everything will be alright , but yet it's just my imagination .
he tried to explain what mistake i've ever done .
he is so fed-up that he couldn't continue anymore .
both of us broke into tears .
31st will be our 1 year anniversary .
1 year aint short at all , i appreciate .
but so sad is we don't even have the chance to celebrate it anymore .
we'll never be friend after this , i'm so sure .
all the promises , all the planning . . .
became wind and flew away just in a second .
everything changed just in a second .
i cried so loud and i bet my mom heard my voice too .
but she never asked me anything and say anything to me .
i guess she know what happened and she is giving me time to calm down .
i'm just so chill now , but why my tears will be dropping down uncontrol ?
i don't want to cry anymore , my eyes really painful and it's hurt .
i don't talk , i don't smile , i don't eat , i don't drink and i don't sleep .
i'm being like a wood-toy sitting in front of the comp day-dream .
there's no reason for me to beg him for being together again .
i know i'm not good enough to be with him .
i always thot i can be understaning and be like how he wish to , but now only i know i didn't change anything since the beginning .
i did the same mistake again and again .
i never appreciate what he gave me and i asked for more and more .
isn't that i should have this kind of punishment ?
" 2 people life back to 1 person life "
it's not easy for me to overcome my previous one .
i used 4 months to forget bout her , how bout him ?
how many hours do i need to overcome this ?
___________________________________________________________________
we met each other with the help of FATE .
from strangers to friend , from friend to couple .
at the beginning we together is not because of we love each other .
its just like coincident , idk how to tell .
a month after we together , it was so unstanble and we nearly break but yet we didn't .
there's a lot of happy memories between us .
he must be the best one i've ever met .
frankly , he don't have handsome face like some of them did .
but what ?
he can think so mature , he can be so loving , he can be so understanding , he can be so caring . . .
if time can turn back to a year ago , i'll appreciate everything .
we started to be so sweet when the trip to clearwater .
you put towel on my nose because of i sneezed non-stop .
you boiled milo for me when i said i'm hungry .
the bday card that i made for you .
the first time we go prom together .
i can't really type it out all .
i think it's enough for the summerizing of the story .
and i hope for a happy ending .
but too bad , God gave a sad ending .
if i was given a chance i don't want everything i just want you .
no no no .
i'm single and alone now .
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
thats i'm going to tell how it goes with my relationship .
in my blog , i'll never talk more about my relationship .
i just don't like to , idk why .
but now , today will the first time and also the last time .
we've officially break up .
he requested to , and i've nothing to do other than accept .
i'm not willing .
cried for the whole night and slept for only 2 hours before exam .
it was expected if i failed my economics .
i didn't really go through all those question , my mind is totally blank .
nothing else , just kept rewinding about yesterday's night incident .
i'm really tired and my eyes looked smaller than usual .
after home i thot everything will be alright , but yet it's just my imagination .
he tried to explain what mistake i've ever done .
he is so fed-up that he couldn't continue anymore .
both of us broke into tears .
31st will be our 1 year anniversary .
1 year aint short at all , i appreciate .
but so sad is we don't even have the chance to celebrate it anymore .
we'll never be friend after this , i'm so sure .
all the promises , all the planning . . .
became wind and flew away just in a second .
everything changed just in a second .
i cried so loud and i bet my mom heard my voice too .
but she never asked me anything and say anything to me .
i guess she know what happened and she is giving me time to calm down .
i'm just so chill now , but why my tears will be dropping down uncontrol ?
i don't want to cry anymore , my eyes really painful and it's hurt .
i don't talk , i don't smile , i don't eat , i don't drink and i don't sleep .
i'm being like a wood-toy sitting in front of the comp day-dream .
there's no reason for me to beg him for being together again .
i know i'm not good enough to be with him .
i always thot i can be understaning and be like how he wish to , but now only i know i didn't change anything since the beginning .
i did the same mistake again and again .
i never appreciate what he gave me and i asked for more and more .
isn't that i should have this kind of punishment ?
" 2 people life back to 1 person life "
it's not easy for me to overcome my previous one .
i used 4 months to forget bout her , how bout him ?
how many hours do i need to overcome this ?
___________________________________________________________________
we met each other with the help of FATE .
from strangers to friend , from friend to couple .
at the beginning we together is not because of we love each other .
its just like coincident , idk how to tell .
a month after we together , it was so unstanble and we nearly break but yet we didn't .
there's a lot of happy memories between us .
he must be the best one i've ever met .
frankly , he don't have handsome face like some of them did .
but what ?
he can think so mature , he can be so loving , he can be so understanding , he can be so caring . . .
if time can turn back to a year ago , i'll appreciate everything .
we started to be so sweet when the trip to clearwater .
you put towel on my nose because of i sneezed non-stop .
you boiled milo for me when i said i'm hungry .
the bday card that i made for you .
the first time we go prom together .
i can't really type it out all .
i think it's enough for the summerizing of the story .
and i hope for a happy ending .
but too bad , God gave a sad ending .
if i was given a chance i don't want everything i just want you .
no no no .
i'm single and alone now .
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
